This is the second time WordPress has deleted a blog post.
I can’t even try to rewrite what I originally wrote. The walls are firmly in place. My brain is tired. I keep fumbling with words. I don’t even care any more. I’m sick of being a failure.
I want to be more but being vulnerable is a weakness that I cannot handle. My anxiety is through the roof right now. I’m panicking and I am certain I will never succeed.
These thoughts are chasing me and I cannot stop running from them.
I guess I should have stuck to playing the violin. I chose horses when I should have chosen violin.
Sorry, that’s all you get.