It’s a little bit wintery here in the Northeast. Well, maybe a lot wintery. As we’ve had about 12 inches dumped on us so far with this current storm. Which poses a bit of a problem for me because I have a little toyota corolla (I sold my truck right before winter) and no snow tires. For the most part I do OK driving in the snow.
Sometimes though, I have a bit of an issue getting out of my barn’s driveway.
This morning I went to take care of my horses before the storm got bad. My barn is about 15 minutes from me and it’s not a bad drive. The hills are what get me. My car doesn’t weigh much and sometimes (a lot of the time) when it snows I have to rev my engine a lot to get it to go about 2 inches a second.
My barn’s driveway isn’t bad going down. It’s a huge downhill driveway but getting out is a different story. The top of the driveway is very steep and when it is snowing out I have to get a lot of momentum to get my car onto the road. I also have to hope no one is coming around the bend because if they are I’m most likely going to get hit.
So this morning I had to attempt to get out of the driveway three times before I was able to get out. I also had to back down the very steep driveway twice. At the third attempt I had to keep my car revved up and I had to head out like I was going to the left even though I had to turn right. My car barely moved at the top of the hill but I was determined to get it onto the road and with a lot of finesse and luck I was able to get onto the road.
I was talking to my mom about how my life seems to being going backwards and how it seems like I’m not going anywhere; while talking to her I paused and thought about my attempts to get out of my barn’s driveway this morning.
I think that I am moving forward; slowly but surely and even when I have to go backwards I am still learning new things. This little analogy reminded me that even when everything seems to be at a stand still you are trying you are moving forward if you just keep on pushing for it. I have determination. I may procrastinate and I am get bogged down by self-doubt but I am determined to succeed. I am determined to have the life I dream of and as long as I keep revving my engine I will get there; slowly but surely.